Oh what a year! For me, like many people, 2020 has had its challenges. If this year was a film or a TV series you just wouldn’t believe the plot line. There have been plenty of twists and turns along the way.
In Lockdown part one I experienced terrible anxiety and I felt like the end of the world was coming. I found it really hard when the schools were closed and my husband was sent home from work.
Before Lockdown, I would quite often spend the day by myself. Suddenly my husband Howard and son Ted were spending a lot more time at home. I found it hard to comprehend this idea. Plus, like many parents around the world, I suddenly had homeschooling to deal with too.
The hardest part of this year was at the beginning of March when all the shops on the high street closed. I just remember feeling very lost at the sight of shops closing their doors for what we thought was two weeks. When Ted and I would go out for a bike ride in the morning the roads would be quiet. It was like the world stopped dead. It took me a little while to my find my feet in this crazy new world we were living in.
After a while, I began to realise that this wasn’t the end at all. I began to think of all the good there is in my life and I started counting my blessings. When the outside world feels bleak I will often just say thank you to myself. I find this helps me to stay calm and feel grounded.
During Lockdown part 2 I have felt at ease. I have not suffered with any anxiety and I have tried to remember the good that is in my life. Although 2020 has been a challenging year I have learned a number of lessons from it. It was tough to begin with but I feel I have retrained my brain to remember all my blessings.
During this year I have realised that challenges are a massive part of being human. Without a challenge or two our lives would be boring. As humans, we thrive on challenging times and we learn from these moments. 2020 has not been the best year of my life but it has taught me so much. As the new year rolls in, I’m looking forward to hopefully a better year but definitely with more challenges.